personal issues:

well, the one thats major and has priority over all the other friggin issues of my life is that my mother is in the hospital. she has cancer and they think it might have spread to her lungs. but there's a chance that it might just be an infection, so they are giving her a ton of antibotics. personally, and i dont know if this is because i dont really want to embrace the thought, or if this is really how i feel, but regardless, i just have this nagging feeling that it really is just an infection. so, yeah, been kinda an emotional wreck even more than usual.

more issues? when is there's not more issues....

i have some personal things to work out. and i am kinda losing my best friend and kinda pulling away from my other best friend. but, i'm not a complete loser, my cousin and i are growing really really close through everything thats been happening lately and right now, she's taken the best friend status. so....yeah, at least good things still come out of the bad, no?

other issues?

i have this horrible back pain and it wont go away. it started before my mom went to the hospital, so its not stress caused, but the stress of everything isnt really helping. the only time it doesnt hurt is when i'm laying down/sleeping. ((thank god it doesnt hurt when i sleep.)) also, it seems that no matter how much/what i take, it doesnt seem to help at all. i really should get it looked at, but thats kinda hard with no money and no insurance. ((yeah, i'm a loser.))

love my job still ((yay, something good)) i actually regret not going to work today, cause not only would it have gotten things off my mind, but i would have gotten to see some friends whom i work with. but i didnt really feel like standing all day and i really didnt feel like telling the story about my mom 20 million times. also, my dad kinda had my work clothes in his car and i was too lazy to drive to the hospital just to get my clothes, thus, i took the day off and just kicked it at home ((which means sleeping til like noon. yay))

other stuff?

uhh....not much other stuff. i kinda just wanted to get everything off my chest so to speak. i need to go buy some more deorderant cause i ran out today....that sucks ass. *goes to snoop for my mom's extras*

one more thing....

if you are the praying type, please, please, please keep my mom in your prayers. it would really mean alot to me and i really do know the power of prayer. so please, i'm not asking you to start praying if you dont already do it, just if you do pray, please say a prayer for her. thank you. <3

*LUFF*